Celebrated 7 years together today. Rented a cabin out in the woods for a little vacation but also because we were supposed to get married on Saturday. It seems selfish or self-involved to be upset or emotional at having to postpone our wedding given everything going on in the country and world over the past several months but it was a surprising blow, doubly surprising given even when we sent out our invitations we were fully aware that it was a possibility. Even with that knowledge it was affecting, intellectually knowing it was possible/likely but emotionally tightly holding on.
Over the past couple weeks we've been able to process it and with this time away it's really helped to put things in perspective, feel more assured and stable, relax and recharge, and move forward. I've always felt energized and soothed by time alone and in nature and with the stress and tedium of life in 2020 this time away was especially needed and restorative. Because the reality is the wedding and parties and concerts and eating inside, all that stuff can wait, we're healthy and together and ultimately that's what's important. Cliche perhaps but true. Simple not easy.
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